2016 Reflecting

Hello again.  I'm trying to be more consistent in my blogging.  Bear with me as I catch up on editing unfinished thoughts and entries.  Seems like the last 2 years have kinda blurred by.  As I look around my house as I attempt to purge and declutter,  I notice there are too many unfinished projects.  As the year comes to a close, like many people do, I'm taking time to reflect on this year and think about how I'd like next year to end...  Endings and Beginnings.....Beginnings and Endings.  There have been many of those in 2016.  What does your year reflection look like?  Is it positive, negative, in-between?  Whatever it is, it's okay.  Sometimes one takes a leap of faith in the wrong direction.  It's all I can say about some things in life.

A recent experience made me feel like bolting from my current life and into another completely different time and location with a brand new already developed identity.  Whereas it was tempting, I couldn't see myself leaving all that I know behind.  I still struggle with things on a daily basis.....  like hmm....what is my focus for today.  I miss my babies and the sense of belonging that a mom feels when she spends her life caring for her young ones.  As they grow up and become quite accomplished adults and settle into their own lives, the feeling of not belonging kinda comes and goes.  I have bouts of complete sadness with sobbing tears at times and feel such pride and joy at others.  Sometimes, I feel lonely and even when in a room full of people, feel alone.  I question many things.  I don't think everyone feels like I do, but I know many do.  What seems to help me most is gym time.....meditation...or reflecting.  Sometimes, just taking a walk alone helps.  Reaching out and helping others who have a more difficult life often puts things into perspective for me.  I know I should appreciate what I have, but of course, I have had that "grass is greener on the other side" ideal....who hasn't?

I started 2016 in better shape than I had been in years...and am ending in not as good health. Sometimes life events happen, completely shifting plans...or as my son reminds me constantly...sometimes life happens while you're making plans.  There are many pros and cons for 2016.  Some dreams came and went, some shattered and some shifted creating an unexpected outcome.  Regardless, I am and Life Is and continues.  It's time to refocus and de-clutter all aspects of life.
Life happens quickly.  So much is happening in my life and so quickly.  I threw myself into work and focused on what needed to be done.  I still felt like part of me was missing... and no matter how hard one tries to get back to where they were, you can't.  It's kind of like the water in a river....once it flows by, you can never get it back.  Although the water continues to flow, just like life continues to go on, it can never be the same again. *sigh*.... but I'm trying here.  Like the flowing water from the same river taking different paths to arrive at a final destination.  Sometimes things take an unexpected turn and you just learn to go with the flow.  What does one do when so much around you keeps going wrong?  Well, you either sink or keep going.  It's been tough, but I've chosen to keep going.  This past year has definitely changed me a lot.  Some things I'm not so proud of, but some things, I hold on to.  Truly, you can't change what you feel.  "It is what it is".  That applies to life, emotions, and facts in general.

As I look back at accomplishments for 2016, I feel blessed to have so many wonderful friends and family to help make life worth living.  I will miss those who have moved on in life, but I noticed that they live on in your heart and memories and you can call on those memories anytime. :)

Thought for the day...No one is perfect.  Accept yourself and all your imperfections and appreciate yourself.  Things begin with you.  If you are not of sound mind, how then, can you assist others.  Well, off the to gym I go.   Make it a GREAT day!  Hugs

Cindy Ann

Season's Greetings

Happy Holidays!!!

I'd like to thank everyone that made my year so fabulous...family, friends, colleagues and clients.  Here's a cute video for you.  I'd like to wish everyone a most memorable Christmas.  May you "Make Moments Matter Most this holiday season with family, friends and loved ones.  Be sure to capture some!

Sending blessings to those less fortunate and thinking of those who have left us.

Hugs

Cindy Ann  

Thanksgiving 2015

Hello!  It's been a while since I wrote this....  This is my attempt to finish unfinished projects and thoughts.  Here's one of my unfinished articles from 2015.....   It's hard to believe it's been over a  year since I wrote this.  This was a very different time and place.  Baby Kenzi is growing up!

Thanksgiving 2015

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday this year.  We didn't have the traditional sit down at the table with the whole family present celebration, but instead had two different types.. in parts.  Thanksgiving lunch with our son at home, and Thanksgiving dinner with out daughter in Poteet. Our grandbaby always makes life better....giving us something to look forward to.  In a couple of days, we played in sandboxes, played with electronic cars, swung for fun and enjoyed walks and time with family.  I truly enjoy capturing all the precious moments I can. :D

Wow!  December is almost gone.  As I think about the year and reflect and review, I can't help but feel a little sad about some things. Change is good, but bittersweet, too. Our Kenzi is now over 2 anda  half years old!  I've been organizing photos and find myself feeling sad at how fast the time flies.

I'll try to do better as I close out thoughts and projects for 2016. :)  Have a blessed day!

Cindy Ann

Hello again!  I am excited to share that I am making progress on my strategic plan for my new venture.  I am not quite ready to share, but I am enjoying the fact that I am slowly making progress outside my head as well as inside. :D  I seem to have a slight A.D.D. issue.  I am blessed with unlimited ideas and a lot of passion for whatever it is I embark on.  I guess getting all ideas, thoughts and plans organized is key to success.  For now, this is what my plan looks like.....








I guess I'm at that point in life after my kids are grown up that I am now responsible for me, myself and I. It's not a bad thing, but for some of us moms who have identified with themselves as the nurturing, supportive, mentoring Super Mom mentality, it's easy to find yourself at a fork in the road..... 






I find myself questioning who I am a lot lately.  As I have said, my favorite job and responsibility in the world has been "Mommy"....I think it always will be.  In my life, I have been the Monogram lady, the Network lady, the Foundation Lady, the Bridal Show lady....along with other titles, like wife, daughter, sister, friend, mentor and more.... Most women are nurturers at the core of who they are.  A lot of us forget to nurture and care for ourselves, so finding ourselves at over 50 and uncertain is more than common for many women and men alike.



I think the best thing I can do at this point is reach out to people I know who can relate and help each other through the tough times.  It is different for all of us.  I am truly blessed to have my husband by my side though all the uncertainty.  In my mind, we are separated and have been for at least 3 years now.  He is a good man, who most definitely signed up for the long haul.....something a lot of men don't.  It tears at me, all that I have put him though this past year.  He does not deserve it.  I have seen people leave for less.  I know many couples, after the kids leave, find they have little or nothing in common.  They stay together for the sake of the kids, but are unhappy.  I don't want to make any waves or create any hard feelings or uncertainty for my kids or my family...but sometimes, it helps to step away for a little while.  Sometimes allowing a change in family dynamics is necessary to make things better for all.  I'm still undecided on what to do, but I'm glad to know he stands by me, no matter what, even if just as my very best friend.  I do love, appreciate and respect him very much.  Let's see what life unfolds as I continue to learn more about myself.  For now, I will say, I'm very excited about my new venture.  Stay tuned.....  and as always....Make it a GREAT day, life, adventure....or whatever it is you are focused on for now.  HUGE HUGS

This is my personal blog

Hi there! My name is Cindy Ann (aka Cynthia Ann).  I am an event producer with a passion for marketing and promoting.  My latest venture is connecting wedding vendors with future brides through events.  This is my personal blog.  I live in Round Rock, Texas, have a wonderful, supporting husband, Carlos, two grown children, Kathleen Kenyon and Michael Martinez, a beautiful grandbaby, Kenzi Scarlett Kenyon and a forever loyal pet, Ninja and her partner in crime is Remi.  I am grateful to my parents and family who have taught me so much and are always there for me, like only family is.  I am hearing-impaired, but that has never stopped me from doing anything or accomplishing what I desired.  I am a firm believer that anything is possible if you put forth the effort.  Whatever I choose to embark in, I do so with all of me.  I am goal and detail oriented and once I embark on a project, see it through to the end.  I love taking chances and learning. I have learned to be the best I can possibly be for me, before trying to do for others. I have also learned that we are all driven by some belief or passion.

I believe in dreams and I believe in love.  Love makes the word go round. For those of you who have found it, hold onto it.  I guess this is also why I enjoy planning wedding events as it is all about love and sharing and helping make possible many happily ever afters.

A little something you should know about me, I am very loyal. I give of myself completely to my friends and family.  I recently engaged in a relationship that taught me all about taking a leap of faith and giving all of yourself to what you believe in, despite circumstances.  I learned that love is a two way street and is based on trust, respect and communication. 

My greatest accomplishment is my kids, whom I love with all my heart....till the end of time.  A mother's love is forever and unconditional.  It is bonding like no other love.

My favorite thing to do is make people happy.  I love networking and meeting new people and businesses and I love helping others succeed.  If I can make one difference to improve a person's life or business, it makes my day.  I have many friends and colleagues who all have touched my life in a most incredible way to get me where I am right now. 

I found myself a little lost this past year, but I am back....with a passion.  Life after 50 is not what I envisioned, but I am going to make it what I want it to be.  I'd like to age gracefully and keep the young at heart mentality.  I look forward to sharing my story and what I learn about life, weddings, and marketing.  This blog will include everything about me and my wonderful journey in life....good and bad.  It will include the ups and downs as they take place and will include some about my past to help you understand how I got to where I am.  I hope you enjoy what I have to share.  If you have anything you'd like to share, or if you'd like to meet, chat or communicate in any way, just reach out.  I am here to help in any way possible.  Make it a GREAT life.  HUGS

Cindy Ann